I CAN I WILL!!!

So not out of it yet..........

Yes you guessed it, I'm back in training and  remotivated with a vengeance.  I accept I'm not in a great place physically but it's almost like I enjoy that part of the challenge to, it makes me feel in control of my own body if that makes sense.  I'm not completely healed which is fine because I know this takes time, and in an ideal world I'd give myself longer before pushing on again, but I can't help myself. It feels good ha ha!!!!  My back is mending and I'm getting stronger each day.  I'm so much further on, I actually forgot what it was like to stand up straight, I feel 2 inches taller its fantastic. To not not feel pain every single day, getting out of bed, getting dressed, putting trainers on, getting in and out of the car etc etc its great!!

How have I re-started?

Well, I've listened I think that was the first step ha ha! I've taken in the advice given and what I've read up on.  Yes I know wow well done you lol!  The first step I've taken is to actually do the stretches and strength building exercises Jude (the physio) gave me, not only that I've done extra and pushed it once I felt the benefits.  Just the reduction in pain has been such a relief and a motivator.  I've now started doing some gym work as I just feel so weak and a bit shit physically. Once I started though, boom, its brilliant my legs are responding and I'm building my strength up.  I've missed the physical work, its not just the muscles and your physique its your mind.  It makes me feel happy, knackered yes but in a good way.

Last week as if by magic I got an email saying I'd got a place in The Grand Union Canal Race which is 145 miles from London to Birmingham, wow!  Scared and excited, and yes of course I accepted and off we go.  Now we have two major races lined up for next year and I'm getting my chance to do one of the most iconic Ultra Races in our country which has been on my list since the start.  Majorly excited and can't wait.  

My worry is that I now over do it in my overly eager ways to recover quick and push as hard as I can to become the best version of me possible.

How did I start I keep asking myself, was it through the love of running, no, it was through a burning desire and need to be better and show my daughter that you can be anything you want to be and achieve great things way beyond our initial limits or what we think are our limits.  What my life has shown me up to this point so far is that we can achieve far greater things and keep breaking down our own walls and barriers to become better versions of ourselves if we really want it. 

Its not over yet, my story is only just beginning!!! My journey has taken a few turns even dog leg corners lol but always moving forward!!

What do they say 'Impossible is nothing' which I agree with to a certain degree, but only with the love and support of my amazing wife.  Who always tells me exactly how it is, no BS!!!  

I CAN I WILL

ONWARDS!!!!