This is it now, I'm in this neck deep.  I'm now fully committed to this challenge, I've fully bought into this and I've put down the marker and said I'm going to do it.  I'm now in a great position, I've put the work in to build my base level of fitness.  For some reason, I never feel fit enough, I'm not sure why this is.  Maybe its my expectations of what I think I should be like or to be able to do what I think I should be able to do.  I don't know, but I'm going to keep working at it at pushing myself harder, further and more intensely.  I'm already using pretty much all my spare time trying to improve whether that's being out there and running, in the gym doing strength work or stretching or rolling or having massages or reading book after book after book about this stuff.  I kind of feel its time to put up or shut up, I need to succeed at this more than ever now.  I need to achieve this for myself, for me to carry on trying to achieve more and greater things.  I'm also going back to my first reasons for doing all this.  My daughter, she was my motivation once before and she is again.  She currently has her own battles going on that I can't do much to help her with.  I want to show her about committing yourself to something so far out of your comfort zone that you have put everything you have into to it.  I want to show her that we all have something inside of us that we can uncover, harness, and use to our own advantage.  I want to show her that even when it looks impossible you can still achieve things, great things.  I want to show her that I get up at 4am in the morning to train because I have to if I want to do this and achieve it.  I want her to see that if you commit yourself fully, doing all the horrible things, training early mornings, training in the wind, rain and snow and the cold, aching all the time and getting on with things then you can do it.  Most of all I want her to be as proud of me as I am of her.

The fire is truly lit inside my belly now. I  now feel ready for the task I have put in front of me.  So what am I going to do now, what can I do from here.  I want to keep on top of my training, do the right things to keep my body healthy and injury free.  I now know that this is going to be a mental game, and that is my strength!  Don't get me wrong, my fitness level needs to be greater than its ever been before and needs to be at point that I believe in my own ability to be able last the distance.  Those cut-off's are going to be my enemy and will be taking them on one at a time.  I have the mental strength to push on when others may stop but I need coping strategies that will empower me at the right times.  The times is now, and I'm ready!!!!

Bring it on!!!!!